Wonder why these truckers do not monitor the height of their loads? They are always crashing into overpasses and bridges, despite signs and warnings? Can there not be some standardization of bridge heights and/or load sizes? Every one has an excuse from the drivers (they just hook up and haul) on up the chain. Can no one take respnsibility for this expensive, ongoing debacle? Seriously? Ridiculous.
So ther are three accomplices to the Boston bombings. Good, lock them up and throw away the key. Thou shalt not blow people up, nor help those who do.
The Keystone pipeline helps no one but the oil companies. Why not build a refinery in Canada? They figure it is somehow easier to ship the oil 3,000 miles south and then refine it? Hmmm. Yeah, let's pollute the Oglala aquifer, where the entire midwestern US draws drinking water from. Who needs clean water anymore - we can sip crude and breathe gas. Yeah.
We somehow need to go in and prevent the Syrian government from using poison gas on their people. And we need to bomb Iran to protect Israel. We can't even keep Afghanistan under control. What if we declared an invasion on the U.S. and did some nation-building here at home. Repair decaying bridges and roads, but also enhance our energy grid, and help renovate inner-city housing. Help make the US a modern country - again.
Just wondering.
A space for poetry and other short literature, as well as the occasional opinion on the state of affairs today.
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Monday, April 22, 2013
Earth Day 2013
You call this progress?
Recycling bins are ubiquitous,
education programs rampant.
family fitness centers with spacious
parking lots. For all those big SUVS.
employing a few lucky or unlucky souls.
The mantra of economic benefits gets chanted.
and what they offer as compensation.
Environment thieves do not openly advertise.
while they breathe some foul soup that will pass for air,
and wonder where all the real trees and real angry birds
disappeared to, once upon a time, before they were born.
-end
We have planted trees all over the city,
Oftentimes right up next to each other.Recycling bins are ubiquitous,
education programs rampant.
But 40-acre or 160-acre plots still vanish,
trees and grass bulldozed for massivefamily fitness centers with spacious
parking lots. For all those big SUVS.
Enormous data centers come in to
suck our power and water resources,employing a few lucky or unlucky souls.
The mantra of economic benefits gets chanted.
Their secrecy is understandable considering
what they take from future generations,and what they offer as compensation.
Environment thieves do not openly advertise.
Hope that future generations enjoy
poking their gadgets and playing games,while they breathe some foul soup that will pass for air,
and wonder where all the real trees and real angry birds
disappeared to, once upon a time, before they were born.
-end
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Conquering Virus Day Three
The misery sneaks up on you,
one minute you feel okay, the next a barrage of sneezes escape;
Nose drips steadily as you run for a tissue.
Thinking feels clear even though sinuses hurt,
head stuffed with cold crud instead of ideas sought.You keep thinking, “why bother? May as well watch TV”
But then who would know about your second bad cold of this year?
Someone has to document the misery, the intensifying
sneezing,
scratchy throat, headaches, malaise. Who better to tell itthan the person who is sick with it?
Rhyming lyrical style is beyond your patience today.
Just want to get it down before dashing for anothertissue, cold pill, coffee or even cookie.
Whatever it takes.
Damn cold.
Yuck.
- end
Monday, April 15, 2013
Here we go again
So here we go again.
Another series of bombings, more bloodshed, tragedy, disaster. Hand-wringing and soul-searching, and asking
why. Don’t have any answers here, just
questions. How can we allow dangerous
weapons to proliferate on our streets, like gasoline in a burning village? How can we allow members of a religion into
our country, when every time there is a terrorist attack, it is by a member of
this same religion? Why we cannot hold
a normally festive event like a marathon any more without being fearful? Don't know.
My heart is
greatly saddened today. While I
realize that our nation was never perfect, and always has had difficult times,
it seems that these days there is so much more random killing and senseless violence. It
just defies logic. But it is the world
we live in, however depressing. Hang in
there, everyone. And hug a loved one
tonight - they probably need it.
Monday, April 01, 2013
Tinpot
Look at the porcine little dictator,
strutting about and uttering threats.Thinks he is a big, bad alligator,
this tiny person, so pathetic.
A laughing stock outside his borders,
would be the object of pity if it were notfor his built-up military that follows orders.
There is a time for peace, if it can be got --
Is it time for the
rest of the world to get together
and wipe this scourge of stupid swagger off the map?We can all agree he is full of threats and bluster,
Time to teach him a lesson, give his knuckles a rap.
Rub his piglike snout in bloody grime of defeat,
Enjoy teaching the lesson, our victory complete.-end
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Inspired Perspiration
I was watching
an old biography of Thomas Edison on TCM channel. It was fascinating to watch him just travel
to a big city (New York), and talk his
way into a good job. Of course, it also
helped that he repaired an early stock ticker
(or “indicator’ as it was called).
That set me to thinking, how would someone like that do in this day and
age.
Of course, a
modern analogue might be Steven Jobs.
Tinkerer, inventor, highly driven.
A young Tom Edison might hitchhike out to Sunnyvale, California, and
talk his way into some company or other.
I have no doubt he would get himself hired, and then rapidly move
up. At least if the tales of the past
are any indication.
He might
observe someone writing a C++ program, and suggest a better algorithm. Or at the very least, suggest a more
efficient way of burning in new EEPROMS.
Whatever, the driven young man would establish himself, and prove his
worth by working long hours, doing whatever it takes to get to a good
result. He would probably be well on
his way to a Billion in net worth by age 30.
The
commonalities between the 1870’s and the present day are multiple. Willingness to put in long hours. Willingness to call on a high manager, and
not take no for an answer. Willingness
to offer someone a solution to their problem, and then work night and day to
make it a reality. 99 percent
perspiration and one percent inspiration, and both are crucial. A man like Edison can create a lot of
careers underneath all of his efforts.
Here is hoping someone like him will stop in Des Moines someday, and
hang his hat up here for good. That old
movie about him even inspired me to write about it. Thanks for reading.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Cannot colonize on ideas alone
We can’t colonize the Solar System on ideas alone
Space
colonization is on more and more peoples’ minds these days. There have been two companies started
recently for the purposes of mining asteroids alone. Planetary Resources, Inc. and Deep Space Industries, Inc. are hoping to launch probes to first survey,
and then mine, heavenly bodies near and far.
Other companies have plans for private stations, like Bigelow Aerospace. One Dutch group named Mars One has plans to
establish a colony on the Red Planet by 2023.
So there is a lot of interest in the subject. Many people look outward, and see exciting possibilities.
http://www.space.com
http://www.spacedaily.com
http://mars-one.com/en/
http://www.deepspaceindustries.com
http://www.planetaryresources.com
http://www.spacex.com
Sunday, March 17, 2013
New Collection soon available.
Pre-order your copy of this new collection, featuring a story by yours truly.
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Hope that one and all had a happy St. Patty's day.
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Sunday, March 10, 2013
Close Call
Woman with coffee in a hurry to cross
She eyed me coming in my red car, stopped
as I slowed and considered stopping.
I changed my mind and sped up and on,
just as she walked into my car, continuing to cross.As if she had a death wish, and I a kill wish.
I passed through the moment and wondered
what had come over us both.
What happened to courtesy, why could I not stop?
What happened to common sense, why didn’t she?
No, we were both stubborn,
we both went, and risked a collisionthat never happened.
Never checked if she spit or listened for a curse;
I just had to get away so I could re-assess it all.I can still see her eyes, and feel the situation.
- whew
Sunday, March 03, 2013
To celebrate MoMath
In honor of the Mathematics Museum opening in NYC...
Three, One and
Nine plopped down on barstools on either side of Four. They ordered Higgs Lights, with
Stringshot chasers. It was going to be a festive evening, Three
could tell that already. He felt glad
he had ventured out of core tonight.
Just then the
door opened, practically right behind him, and he heard more Euclidian
gibbering. ‘Oh no. It was Two and Six...’ he thought glumly. There goes the neighborhood!
Their days are numbered
Sitting in his
easy chair, Three ran through the probabilities for his evening. He said to himself, “It’s time to blow this buffer and transmit
myself elsewhere!” He made himself presentable,
and then translated out to the main bus.
He glided along that, and got off
near the Downtown area. He sensed One
coming from the opposite direction, and they fell into synch.
Three greeted one genially.
“How are
things in the numberverse?”
“Just digi-riffic,”
replied One. “Been scaling up vectors
all week.”
“Good. Our bosses will be pleased. Say, want to have a drink?”
“Sure, why
not? Let’s go to that new place on First
street, “ said One.
“You mean the
Irrational Cat? Been meaning to check it
out,” said Three.
“I talked to
Four, and he said he would be out tonight.
He is after a new One.”
“Him and his
hot Ones,” said Three.
So Three and
One wandered downtown and soon located the Irrational Cat, located on First and
Main. They tried to enter, and almost collided
with Nine.
“Hey, how are
you guys doing? Long time, no
calculate.” Nine slurred his words a
bit.
“Oh, just been
marking time, I guess. We’re going in
for a drink - care to join us?” said
Three.
One looked at
him, perhaps thinking that Nine was already pretty sloshed. But he stayed silent.
“Sure, why
not? Lead the way, gents.”
The three
numbers made their way through the portal into a dimly lit room. A long bar ran down most of the length of
it. To their left, the bar curved
around, and the room opened up into an area with pool tables, and beyond, a
small dance floor.
Three, One and
Nine approached the bar. Four was seated
there already, sipping on a quantum fizz.
“Hey,
Four! Good to sense you here,” called
Three. Four turned and waved a few
digits.
“Hi,
guys. Wondered if you would show. Just waiting for my Hot One to get out of the
restroom.”
Four spotted
his hottie making her way around the bar, exiting the restrooms. He motioned to Three and One, and said, “There she is. Fellows, could you make room for my sweetie?”
“Sure,” they
chorused. They shifted positions, and
Three ended up contending with the Hot One’s purse wedged between the stools
like a painful punctuation point.
Meanwhile, Five, Nine’s racetrack
buddy, had just walked in. He wanted to
chat with Nine about the results of the last race. But Nine was gracious enough to move down a
stool, so that Four wouldn’t have to subtract his place.
The Bartender
took Five’s order, a Gamma Gulper.
Finally getting all of them served, he stood a moment, smiling,
listening to their idle chatter traffic.
Then he came out from the other side of the bar, and made his way around
the front, checking on a sticky door hinge, his flash memory racks, and other
Nano clutter. At one point he looked at
the digital dudes iterating along the barstrip.
He thought to
himself,
“Jeez. With
Three, the Hot one (with jutting purse between her and Three), Four, One, Five
and Nine here, this is going to be one irrational place. Who else could possibly show to make it
worse?”
Pi end
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Grazed
One inch, two inches, three and four...
This system should miss us, scratch
at our back door, maybe an inch or so;
Then Mother Nature upended everything.
Spinning tires, crunching metal, screaming curses.
Here we go again, this time without warning;
Plans disrupted, finances disrupted, commutes destroyed...
Acute sense of very real pains of winter, oh so unpleasant.
Thought we would skate through to April without
any or many more serious blizzards. Fat chance of that.
Like the gridlock in Congress, or teenage manners,
Things delight in amazing us with their stabbing jabs --
A corner of my mind can visualize a beautiful spring day,
flowering crabtrees, crocuses and daffodils grace green grass.
Memory promises a lot of rain and flooding, oh yes we need it,
but please oh lord just give us a few nice days in the balance.
This system should miss us, scratch
at our back door, maybe an inch or so;
Then Mother Nature upended everything.
Spinning tires, crunching metal, screaming curses.
Here we go again, this time without warning;
Plans disrupted, finances disrupted, commutes destroyed...
Acute sense of very real pains of winter, oh so unpleasant.
Thought we would skate through to April without
any or many more serious blizzards. Fat chance of that.
Like the gridlock in Congress, or teenage manners,
Things delight in amazing us with their stabbing jabs --
A corner of my mind can visualize a beautiful spring day,
flowering crabtrees, crocuses and daffodils grace green grass.
Memory promises a lot of rain and flooding, oh yes we need it,
but please oh lord just give us a few nice days in the balance.
Friday, February 22, 2013
I remember in 2013
500 days
Proving them wrong has been fun,
We finished the trip a few days early.
Our bold dash has extended humanity’s reach,
Perhaps an expensive undertaking, heaven knows.
We will relax and enjoy the trip, because we got
the ultimate prize for humanity, from a dream derived.
-end
The pundits said it could not be done,
humans cannot survive such a journey;Proving them wrong has been fun,
We finished the trip a few days early.
We’ve seen more radiation on an Earthside beach,
Feeling fine, better as the Red Planet grows;Our bold dash has extended humanity’s reach,
Perhaps an expensive undertaking, heaven knows.
Now we can exult in the view, whether or not
we make it back alive - all that matters is we arrived;We will relax and enjoy the trip, because we got
the ultimate prize for humanity, from a dream derived.
When determined individuals go after a prize,
Step aside, you may be in for a big surprise.Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Snowstorm a'Coming
Better go grab those groceries,
gas up the car, stuff it with supplies;Make sure the snow-blower works, or
have a shovel handy when the snow flies.
Central Iowa is having another major snow event,
We’ve been warned about it since last Sunday;There is nothing we can do to avoid or prevent
this catastrophe, except await the fateful day.
The commute will be slow and messy,
Something we all know from before;No parking on streets, fines will be heavy,
Shovel your drive so plows can deposit more.
Winter agonies in February do persist,
Six inches is a holocaust, if you insist!-end
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Here It Comes
Tax Time Once Again
Retirement planning was duly addressed,
checking statements pored over with care;Financial gyrations can leave one depressed,
overwhelming numbers result in stupefied stare.
Daily manipulations are only a prelude,
The big event looms ominously ahead;April 15th will be the big hullabaloo,
a date I try to prepare for, with dread.
Yet every year I somehow get through this
trial by tax code, whether or not any is left;Afterwards am left with a feeling of bliss,
And personal belongings, not totally bereft.
Springtime comes, and mood and steps are light,
Taxes have been paid, so no need to take flight.- end
Monday, February 18, 2013
In Search of the Way
The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn,
Progenitor of dozens of offshoots;Devout followers were not docile pawns,
Their dynamic temples rapidly took root.
Alpha et Omega carried on the traditions,
With some changes in ceremony and ritual;Sex-magic was practiced in an early edition,
Christianity became dominant, doctrines scriptural.
Builders of the Adytum is an American brand,
The HOTD threads still stretching onward;Philosophical adepts argue and take a stand,
Pronaos groups propagate truths outward.
Society of the Inner Light another carry-forward,
Founded by Dion Fortune, ex-Christian scientist.Her twenty-four books introduce straightforward
magic and pagan elements for aspiring young tanists.
The Temple of Starlight brings in Western science,
Psychotherapy, hypnosis, neuro-linguistic programming;Ina Custers Van-Bergen leads this group presence,
To bring spiritual traditions back, via internetworking.
The Avalon and London groups continue strict tradition,
Only British citizens need apply, and they must be moral;willing and prepared for rigors to be brought to fruition.
King Arthur’s quest for the Grail continues sans quarrel.
Chaos Magic brings together many disparate kinds,
From Ordo Templi Orentis, Druid and Wiccan traditions;Yet CM escapes the hidebound to explore new lines,
Practitioners collaborate to understand contradictions.
Heathenry and the Northern Tradition add
The Norse pantheon to the eclectic mix;Odin, Thor, Freya and even Loki make glad
many hearts, that long for Asgard’s kicks.
Freemasonry remains a secret society,
Rituals, methods and meetings concealed;After you peel away all the obscuring piety,
An agency that promulgates charity is revealed.
Those are some of the secret religions,
Enlightening and inspiring us plebeians to go on;Founders were not just about contrition,
Producing informative works , new spirit songs.
It is up to the reader to decide what is right,
Though it helps to know the choices out there;Find your own path, follow it into the light,
You may find a way to relinquish all your cares.
- end
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Confrontation - a short story
The sun beat
down on el Calle de Hernandez. Little
dust devils were the only thing that dared to venture out, kicked up by an
intermittent breeze. In Norte
Americano the gringos would call it the Santa Anna. In sheltered recesses on both sides of the
street, watchers peered from windows.
Gun barrels probed the hot air just outside ancient crumbling
windowsills. But their wielders were at
ease, trying to endure the heat. No one
would try anything funny at this time of day.
It was too damned hot. Who
wanted to get shot to death all sweaty like?
Might not look good at the funeral.
“Come one, it’s payback time.”
They said
“wait, wait.”
- The End
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
A Musing Day
Gomer Pyle got hitched
All those years,
safely hidden -
In the closet,
love blossomed.
28 record albums,
TV shows,
guest appearances.
About affectations,
not one peep.
Then in his eighties,
A marriage,
the truth blazes forth.
“Well, gosh, Sarge,
it just seemed like
the right thing to do.”
-end
Sunday, January 06, 2013
The Eagles
The eagles soar, circle and perch --
eye crowds of humans gathered below,
on bridges and in the woods,
snapping photos, taking videos.
They might be thinking
Have you not seen hungry birds before?
Can’t we eat in peace?
Don’t you have anything better to do?
The people ooh and ahh and point.
Look at the majestic wingspan,
the regal white cap, glittering eyes,
the amazing talons that shoot out,
grab unwary carp or bass destined for
baby eaglets grumbling stomachs.
Like certain fictional characters in Tolkein’s books,
they rule the skies and dominate imaginations.
It is interesting to contemplate these bird emperors
are relatives in the Vulture family.
Beauty resides everywhere.
- end
Friday, January 04, 2013
Need a Poetry Fix? Here is a place to get yours - thank you for looking.
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Sunday, December 09, 2012
Fiscal Cliff thoughts
This thing we are approaching is so ridiculous. Democrats and Republicans alike have to grow
up and get real about this. It is
throwing a cloud over everyone’s future.
We are supposed to be world leaders in some aspects, although I realize
that is fading. But nevertheless, can we
not try and get this done? Here are a
few of my ideas for what it’s worth.
- Make cutbacks
to Defense, and every other program - modest ones.
-
Sunday, December 02, 2012
In the Wayback Machine - Again
When 3.5 floppies were the standard, files were smaller,
and it was a novelty to connect a digicam to a computer. Then something called a Zip drive came
along, and all of a sudden we could store up to 100 megs on a cartridge, or 250
megs later. About the same time, the
first commercial CD writers came on the market. These rapidly sped up, so 1x became 2x and
4x and 8x and so on.
Now we could
store up to 700 megs of data on a CD, or write up to 70-80 minutes of
music. Amazing, to a generation that
had cut its teeth on the 5 1/4” floppy things, containing something like 360
kilobytes of storage capacity. If one
of us could jump ten years in the future from this time, around 1998-99, to
2010, they would be pleasantly astounded.
The cd had
morphed into a 4 Gigabyte DVD, then a 25 GB blue-ray disk. Now you could store tons of pictures and
videos, many taken on the compact new point-and-shoot cameras coming out in
droves. Kodak was flirting with
bankruptcy, film cameras were by now all but dead.
And then the
flash drives (or thumb drives) increased
rapidly in storage. In 2007, a 4 GB
version could be had for around $70.00 in a local office supply store. But I recently purchased a 64 GB one online
for much less, around $40.00 (in 2012) .
I can load it up with music, and go out to my car, a 2010 model, and
plug it directly into a USB port on the console and play music for a couple
days if I want. My 1999 self would be
very happy indeed, to have that kind of capacity, erasable and re-writeable,
portable “Ram in a stick” in a quantity that would make early mainframe
builders drool.
Perhaps a virtual tombstone is in order. “Here lies the CD-RW. 1997-2012.
Once the most cutting edge technology, now relegated to history. No technology caught the sunlight or held
drinks as well.”
Perhaps in the future instant wireless access to the
Internet from the car will render thumb drives obsolete. Even now, cellphones linked with cars can
grab music and play it on demand. And
those 3.5 floppies? Hopefully being
recycled, more likely taking up space in landfills. But perhaps some of that will be revived
for the cache, just like vinyl records are now. Do the bits look better coming off of a magnetic
media? I doubt it, but beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
;-) thanks for reading.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
A new website that is still under construction
http://dycen-alexander.webs.com
Amazing the authors that I know...
http://dycen-alexander.webs.com
Amazing the authors that I know...
Tuesday, November 06, 2012
The Last Debate
Opponents are seated this time,
Positions and questions rehearsed;
Prepared for rebuttals in kind,
In all facts and figures immersed.
Television crews are positioned,
Moderator is well-prepared;
Coaches have made their decisions,
Weaknesses and strengths compared.
When they go at it a nation will watch,
or at least a good portion thereof;
An election might hang on this match,
Each trying to propel himself above...
Republican Romnesia or Obamacare economy,
The outcome will determine our final legacy.
Opponents are seated this time,
Positions and questions rehearsed;
Prepared for rebuttals in kind,
In all facts and figures immersed.
Television crews are positioned,
Moderator is well-prepared;
Coaches have made their decisions,
Weaknesses and strengths compared.
When they go at it a nation will watch,
or at least a good portion thereof;
An election might hang on this match,
Each trying to propel himself above...
Republican Romnesia or Obamacare economy,
The outcome will determine our final legacy.
Sunday, November 04, 2012
Election 2012
Well, it is finally almost over. A couple more visits by the two candidates, and then on Nov. 6th anyone who did not vote absentee can vote real-time so to speak.
I have never seen so many imploring, grasping, begging emails - would have never thought something like this was possible. It made me perturbed with both parties. Grabbing for dollars like that, just so they can run another foul advertisement slamming their opponent. With prices going up on everything, it is hard enough to make ends meet. And now this grabbing monster of a political process wants to shake every loose coin out of our pockets. It is disgusting, and I wish there were some way to change it.
Well, it is finally almost over. A couple more visits by the two candidates, and then on Nov. 6th anyone who did not vote absentee can vote real-time so to speak.
I have never seen so many imploring, grasping, begging emails - would have never thought something like this was possible. It made me perturbed with both parties. Grabbing for dollars like that, just so they can run another foul advertisement slamming their opponent. With prices going up on everything, it is hard enough to make ends meet. And now this grabbing monster of a political process wants to shake every loose coin out of our pockets. It is disgusting, and I wish there were some way to change it.
Work fantasy
*** the end***
At work today, the world ended, or seemed to.
No one would speak to me - they talked into their phones,
and occasionally glanced my way - but did not say a work. They could have been looking at air, or a
painting on the wall.
I continued in my rounds, numbed, upset. They usually ask me how I’m doing, or say something. Not this time.
And then I saw
it, over by the window on the far wall.
The glowing shape. Was it a trick
of the eyes? I looked away, and then
back again. It was still there.
They had been
talking about the strike. But they never
talked about who the owners were.
Apparently, the owners had sent a representative to
negotiate. And I, who had glided around
there making fun and laughing, I was being shut out. And it scared the hell out of me.
The light-construct appeared on every floor that I went
to. I uttered no more jokes, I drew no
more funny pictures on the elevator lumber.
I meekly made my rounds. And when
it came time to go home, and I had to leave through that rear door, the sun
seemed much brighter than usual.
Mustering all of my courage, I walked through that pastiche of
light (“how dare they imped me, a contractor,
anyway?”)
I tingled all the way home, but otherwise seemed none the
worse for wear. Darned out-system
union busters.
*** the end***
Wednesday, October 03, 2012
Well, I just completed what will be my last weekday bike ride for quite awhile. It felt great to get out there, and soar down the trails, underneath a gorgeous canopy of colored leaves. Lots of others were out enjoying it as well. From now on, I'll try other, more compressed exercise routines, like stair-climbing, running or just calisthentics. Anything to keep the weight off.
The one thing I don't care for is lifting weights. It is difficult; and it builds muscle that must constantly be maintained, or it will turn into flab, and then you are worse off than if you never put the muscle on in the first place. But, to each their own. It is just nice to get out there and be a part of the ebb and flow of life, along with all that youth out there. Invigorating.
The one thing I don't care for is lifting weights. It is difficult; and it builds muscle that must constantly be maintained, or it will turn into flab, and then you are worse off than if you never put the muscle on in the first place. But, to each their own. It is just nice to get out there and be a part of the ebb and flow of life, along with all that youth out there. Invigorating.
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